kenapa ? mengapa ? why ?

kenapa aq x boleh ngis niee ? mengapa ?
why ? why did i cant cry ? erghh .
it hurt like hell that i cant cry even in my state ryte now .
did i ran out of my tears ? that was the most ridiculous thing i ever said .
noway i ran out of tears , since part human body was made up of water .
i want to cry but i cant ! arghhh ! its like been stab by a knife .

well , crying is one of the channel when i want to release my stress .
it was like a 'anti-depression' pill that u take to make u feel better .
why did u do not flow down my face like before ?
its been a long time u didnt 'come out' .

i gotta stop being stupid ! smpai bla maw bgni ?
hell no , aq maw jdi bgni lbih lma yaa .
xmaw cua aq tkanan2 niee bh . ya allah .
bole menjemput gilaa klaw bgni trus .

pull myself together . ignore all of the fucking shit that bring me down .
im not gonna let them bring me down ! cause i am a SUPERWOMAN !
i have been through this before and even worst than this .
you bet i can stand up on my foot again sooner or later . i must stand up !
all that matter is TIME . only TIME can decided that .
ya ALLAH , guide me . aminn .

assalamualaikum & farewell fellas .